Wednesday, 18 July 2012

july 19 in the wee hours.

so its quarter to 3am and i am not able to get a sleep although im sleepy.
yesterday,wasnt really a good day for me.
been moody the whole time.
then adding to my mood swings were the two sms i received from a stranger that knows me.
 it was ok if its just me being bad mouth at but it involved my mom which i cant tolerate it.
Then in the end,i didnt know it was plus i dont know what happened between me and my boyfriend.
After i messaged he became busy and i became more moody.
sometimes its so complicated to be a girl.
but the truth is i just want to be comforted by him,
instead i made him mad.
im such a pain,
so hard to be with.
Then i got hated by him,but i messaged him.
what is going on in my life ?
why im i so messed up?
And the reason im still up this late is because he didnt even care.
Not a message goodnight nor an iloveyou.
it just hurts.
.........
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Sunday, 1 July 2012

There might be days you have think this way,
and if you ever did,
'Im SORRY'
and
IM SO THANKFUL FOR STILL STAYING IN MY LIFE
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH,MAHAL :')


Friday, 29 June 2012

I cant really sleep well,
knowing his not feeling well,
I hope he get well soon,
all of the unwell feelings,
I want them to vanish,
I cant do anything,
All i could do is pray for his health.
Pray for his safety.
Pray for his hard works.
Pray for his success in life.
Pray for his family.
Get well soon,
even its just a small matter 
or 
what,
Im worried
and
I care so much about you.
I love you.

Thursday, 28 June 2012

I cant believe it:(

I need antibiotics!
I need amoxicilin,ampicilin and panadol as well.
I just need it</3

Hi,
I'm Shiela,
I dont have the most beautiful smile in the world,
I dont have the perfect attitude,
Im not perfect,
Im not that confident or Open about myself,
yet easy to be read,
just like an open book 
but they dont really know,
what's beneath 
my actions.
I may be hard to handle at times,
stubborn at things,
may not be able to understand certain things that may take really long for me to get it,
may not be the best of anything,
may not know her purpose in life,
may be in confusion with life,
but all those sort of change over one certain guy that came into 
my life,
everything went unexpectedly,
I fell in love
And 
Im loving this feelings
Its warm,
It made me feel alive,
made me feel joy,
hope.
Made me realize of my life,
of living it,
and it inspired me to continue,
to believe
that its not the end.
That guy is everything to me.
His the dream i have been waiting for,.
the guy i didnt expect to change me,
the guy that i really want to live with,
his just the whole of it.
I just want to be with him.
I want to grow a family with him.
I thank god for letting me know him.
I thank him for trying and letting me open up the doors i had closed.
Thank you,Love.
Your the best i could i ask for,
I love you.

FAIR.

Looking at this picture made me  realized a lot.
LIKE BIG.
In every girl part who sees this picture would probably react and not to mention i did the same,
every girl is pride when it comes to their dignity,
and this made me think,
'what about the boys side?'
After reading some comments about this picture and reading every guys opinion,
it made me realized that both gender should be fair in everything.
Because nowadays girls are not that innocent back in the old days,
where girls only stay at home being look after by their parents,
by keeping them safe,
getting them respected,
and
by not getting them tamed.
And then the guys would go for them,
to their home and face the girl's parents before going on a date,
They,
do all the efforts and courage,
just to make the girl say yes,
with all the silly-show, 
or
serenades.
Those were the old days.
But in this generation,
I think we should both be fair in everything now,
Ever since the girls started to revolt at
some era where only guys are permitted to work or given
and girls are to stay at home doing their house work,
they actually brought this to themselves,
taught us to be smart,to be strong and to level up with the guys.
GIRLS SIDE
At some point, 
there are girls that would not allow to be look down on.
Girls are the most PRIDEFUL Living in the world.
They just want to keep the dignity in them, 
the self-respect for them.
I guess its because they are the sensitive ones yet has a strong sentimental value in them,
HOPE.
But if a girl truly love someone,
SHE WOULD DO ANYTHING FOR HIM,
SHE WOULD NOT CARE WHAT OTHERS THINK OR SAY,
SHE WOULD CONTINUE TO FIGHT FOR HIM,
SHE WOULD NOT CARE HOW HARD IT WILL TAKE,
SHE WOULD CONTINUE TO BE WITH HIM 
AND 
WAIT.
'but here's the deal with the girls,
their feeling lasts really long,
it take every scrap of hardship for them to move on,
to forget,
and 
to love again,
As well, courage to do something stupid
just to be back with the person they love.
And in the end, there comes 'limitations'
This is where they start to accept the fact,
to accept everything,
and to realize he will not come back anymore,
and that is over. '
There are girls who tend to play and trick the guys,
making them believe,
making them fall without doing the same thing,
using them,
and hurting them,
In my opinion here,
any girls can be that way,
if its what they choose to be,
what they want to be,
but its just like how guys are.
GUYS SIDE
GUYS ARE LIKE GIRLS TOO
My boyfriend told me that,
and the truth is,
Guys are more sensitive than girls,
they way they love are much more simplier than girls,
Guys are more straight forward than girls,
Guys stick to their word of promise.
I'd say at this days guys are easier to love,
yet risky too.
And the only weakness they have is probably,
GIRLS.
They get tempt,
they get influence.
The only thing they lose their feelings is when the girl is not trusting him so much and
not giving them so much love as they need too.
They may cheat just like some girls may do.
but mostly they meant what they really feel.

So basically,
Its just the same.
So i would treat this as a fair thing to do.
Guys have their reasons,
just like girls.
The guy in the picture maybe and an asshole to some other girls 
but you really dont know what the girl did to him,
he couldnt even face her,
his that hurt.
Seeing her hurt him.
For girls,
who rejects a guy kneeling down for them,
they
may have a same reason or a different reason,
they may be a bitch to just ignore.
But we definitely,
Cant label on people,
specially their background.
We just need to mind our own business.
oh,not to mention.
I hope he could at least help her get up and clearly tell her that its not going to work,
that it is over.
The same for girls too,help the guy up who ever is experiencing this now.!!!>:|
Respect each other even if its over!!!
I know it hurts but she has to accept it too,
</3
I can feel how hurt that can be :'(
I feel bad for the both of them,
for any couples who had experience 
something like this.
</3

Wednesday, 27 June 2012

A Successful Relationship Requires Falling In Love Many Times,
Always With The Same Person. But Deeper And Deeper Every Time:)
My RYKIEL SOON FRANCIA :))<3