It's December and chill weather.

It's been few weeks now that it has been raining from every afternoons and it has been very cold at night. Rain actually makes me really laid-back and slack a lot around the house. Not just that but gave me moods to look for food to eat every minute,gosh. Well i cant blame the weather since it's December. This month is a very cool month for Asian countries. Some may experience rainy days and windy weather like in the Philippines. The night there will be very windy and chill, its very nice to stay out side and watch the starry sky.In western areas they may experiencing winter or snow now, how i wish it snow's here too at the country's I'm staying.I've been longing to see and touch a snow but somehow it hasn't happen.I had a chance before when i went to china it was winter when i was there , I enjoyed my stay there especially it's winter season, I was hoping during my stay it would snow but it didn't but after the day i came back to my country,just one day difference it SNOW!truly unlucky. But I didn't regret of not seeing it cause I will still have chance to see it to another country,maybe to my next journey or visit to another place who know's where i can go.

I love December so much cause its Christmas and i get to go back to my hometown also i get to bond with my cousins,friends,and my family there.That's the most eager moments for me to spend it with them,even if me and my cousins aren't much in talking terms,well were kind of shy sometimes but I'm trying hard,very hard. I've been really away from them that i feel sad that I couldn't grow up with them and do a lot of fun like hang outs and chill and even share secrets with them, I would want to do that with them,until now,even with my friends.  Another thing that I love going back there is the foods I ate there,It's very healthy and yummy and also my grandmom is the one whose cooking my favorites. I love being with her,she took care of me when I was young, i never got mad or hated her.I wanted to bring her in Brunei but she doesn't want it.She's still strong too at the age of some late 70s.I want her to be always there for us and to be really strong. This is the only month I can spend my time with her and be there with her.

Then going back to philippines can really show how pampered I am here in Brunei and how I'm not so use to getting out alone especially in the big city as I am afraid to get lost.Every time were going out I stick to my mom and it made me look like a 12 years old.pretty sad, also there are so many people around the streets and it kind of scared me,especially after knowing there's so many crimes in there so I was being careful plus many people gave me headache~ I couldn't walk properly and its really crowded that it's hard to get an oxygen to breathe so Im having lactic acid in me whenever I go out there.Mostly only when my dad gets there,that's the only time we can go to places,like manila. I spend my 2weeks staying at home only.At home there's no air conditioner but its very cold at night and not so hot in the morning since it's windy.Then we have no refrigerator too but I'm used to drinking warm water since i don't like cold stuff.Even when it comes to bathing I have to boil really hot water,I'm really not use to cold water but when I was younger i love cold water that was when I was still staying there.

Anyway, I just cant wait to go back to philippines even if we go back there yearly. I can never get tired of philippines,i just miss so much things there and I am much more happy there,I'm pretty stress-free,I am so much free there from anything that I am thinking and hearing from here,When I'm there I don't feel sad or depress.Everything seems so good there,so happy and all for me.And even if there are few friends of mine remembers me i don't really mine since I can always make new ones and be happy about it .I am just so excited that i want to shout it out the airport that I'M BACK in there.I'm so much free from everything.