YIEEE<3 

Its my Baby there whose sleeping :">I love to stare at him sleep<3

This was taken after our long fight.
Lately, we've been having long fights

and iv been really emotional about it.
I think that was monday,
I got jealous again,
and because of that we came into argumentation.
I dont like fighting with him.
it hurts.
why cant i be cool about things?

Im also the one who upset myself and dragging him to it.

why em i so complicated?

It made think that im better off in his life rather im being pain in the butt.

I told myself that i do not want to bring pressure and add to his stress

and here i'am making things worse for him, for us.

I over-reacted and worst i over-think.

neither of us wouldnt want that,

We are miles apart,

its very hard for me not to see the possibilities

of you being drawn or taken by others,

I've been scared of losing you.

Im also scared of you.

After this day, we were ok then here iam again making you mad,

I never actually do anything to make you smile anymore,

nor make you happy

and here i go again,

thinking,

What if you lose it?

what if you got tired and feel lonely with me?

what if you dont want it anymore?

what if you wanna leave?

My mind is effin with me.

I was not being dishonest with him,

i was avoiding him getting mad but it was wrong </3

I didnt even also answer not mind what that guy was asking.

i just erased it and remind him about his gf so wouldnt be doing stuff that his girl wouldnt want too,

and i dont get mad that easily when he ask or say some rude things or word.

why cant i be more rude?

why do i always think about other's feelings first

instead of mine

and neglected him</3

I cant bring myself at ease at all,

He might be thinking im not being honest to him,

I made him think,

I made him curious,

More on top of it,

He lost his trust to me</3

the most im afraid to happen,

it happened

why em i so stupid?

why do i keep hurting him</3

I never intended it that way</3

why em i so disobedient</3

Im just adding up to the pressure</3

'nasa huli daw ang pagsisisi'

and im at that point

</3

all i could say im sorry

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It feels like everything is tearing apart,

I Promise that will be the last.

IM SORRY

I LOVE YOU

WILL YOU CHANGE?</3