Friday, 29 June 2012

I cant really sleep well,
knowing his not feeling well,
I hope he get well soon,
all of the unwell feelings,
I want them to vanish,
I cant do anything,
All i could do is pray for his health.
Pray for his safety.
Pray for his hard works.
Pray for his success in life.
Pray for his family.
Get well soon,
even its just a small matter 
or 
what,
Im worried
and
I care so much about you.
I love you.

Thursday, 28 June 2012

I cant believe it:(

I need antibiotics!
I need amoxicilin,ampicilin and panadol as well.
I just need it</3

Hi,
I'm Shiela,
I dont have the most beautiful smile in the world,
I dont have the perfect attitude,
Im not perfect,
Im not that confident or Open about myself,
yet easy to be read,
just like an open book 
but they dont really know,
what's beneath 
my actions.
I may be hard to handle at times,
stubborn at things,
may not be able to understand certain things that may take really long for me to get it,
may not be the best of anything,
may not know her purpose in life,
may be in confusion with life,
but all those sort of change over one certain guy that came into 
my life,
everything went unexpectedly,
I fell in love
And 
Im loving this feelings
Its warm,
It made me feel alive,
made me feel joy,
hope.
Made me realize of my life,
of living it,
and it inspired me to continue,
to believe
that its not the end.
That guy is everything to me.
His the dream i have been waiting for,.
the guy i didnt expect to change me,
the guy that i really want to live with,
his just the whole of it.
I just want to be with him.
I want to grow a family with him.
I thank god for letting me know him.
I thank him for trying and letting me open up the doors i had closed.
Thank you,Love.
Your the best i could i ask for,
I love you.

FAIR.

Looking at this picture made me  realized a lot.
LIKE BIG.
In every girl part who sees this picture would probably react and not to mention i did the same,
every girl is pride when it comes to their dignity,
and this made me think,
'what about the boys side?'
After reading some comments about this picture and reading every guys opinion,
it made me realized that both gender should be fair in everything.
Because nowadays girls are not that innocent back in the old days,
where girls only stay at home being look after by their parents,
by keeping them safe,
getting them respected,
and
by not getting them tamed.
And then the guys would go for them,
to their home and face the girl's parents before going on a date,
They,
do all the efforts and courage,
just to make the girl say yes,
with all the silly-show, 
or
serenades.
Those were the old days.
But in this generation,
I think we should both be fair in everything now,
Ever since the girls started to revolt at
some era where only guys are permitted to work or given
and girls are to stay at home doing their house work,
they actually brought this to themselves,
taught us to be smart,to be strong and to level up with the guys.
GIRLS SIDE
At some point, 
there are girls that would not allow to be look down on.
Girls are the most PRIDEFUL Living in the world.
They just want to keep the dignity in them, 
the self-respect for them.
I guess its because they are the sensitive ones yet has a strong sentimental value in them,
HOPE.
But if a girl truly love someone,
SHE WOULD DO ANYTHING FOR HIM,
SHE WOULD NOT CARE WHAT OTHERS THINK OR SAY,
SHE WOULD CONTINUE TO FIGHT FOR HIM,
SHE WOULD NOT CARE HOW HARD IT WILL TAKE,
SHE WOULD CONTINUE TO BE WITH HIM 
AND 
WAIT.
'but here's the deal with the girls,
their feeling lasts really long,
it take every scrap of hardship for them to move on,
to forget,
and 
to love again,
As well, courage to do something stupid
just to be back with the person they love.
And in the end, there comes 'limitations'
This is where they start to accept the fact,
to accept everything,
and to realize he will not come back anymore,
and that is over. '
There are girls who tend to play and trick the guys,
making them believe,
making them fall without doing the same thing,
using them,
and hurting them,
In my opinion here,
any girls can be that way,
if its what they choose to be,
what they want to be,
but its just like how guys are.
GUYS SIDE
GUYS ARE LIKE GIRLS TOO
My boyfriend told me that,
and the truth is,
Guys are more sensitive than girls,
they way they love are much more simplier than girls,
Guys are more straight forward than girls,
Guys stick to their word of promise.
I'd say at this days guys are easier to love,
yet risky too.
And the only weakness they have is probably,
GIRLS.
They get tempt,
they get influence.
The only thing they lose their feelings is when the girl is not trusting him so much and
not giving them so much love as they need too.
They may cheat just like some girls may do.
but mostly they meant what they really feel.

So basically,
Its just the same.
So i would treat this as a fair thing to do.
Guys have their reasons,
just like girls.
The guy in the picture maybe and an asshole to some other girls 
but you really dont know what the girl did to him,
he couldnt even face her,
his that hurt.
Seeing her hurt him.
For girls,
who rejects a guy kneeling down for them,
they
may have a same reason or a different reason,
they may be a bitch to just ignore.
But we definitely,
Cant label on people,
specially their background.
We just need to mind our own business.
oh,not to mention.
I hope he could at least help her get up and clearly tell her that its not going to work,
that it is over.
The same for girls too,help the guy up who ever is experiencing this now.!!!>:|
Respect each other even if its over!!!
I know it hurts but she has to accept it too,
</3
I can feel how hurt that can be :'(
I feel bad for the both of them,
for any couples who had experience 
something like this.
</3

Wednesday, 27 June 2012

A Successful Relationship Requires Falling In Love Many Times,
Always With The Same Person. But Deeper And Deeper Every Time:)
My RYKIEL SOON FRANCIA :))<3

Tuesday, 26 June 2012

' NOT JUST IN ONE MINUTE BUT IN SPLIT SECONDS'
Yes, I can talk to hundreds or less than a hundred but there is just one who can give me those smile:">
Even while typing this,
His the Only one in my mind :">
With Only One word from him,
He could lift up my whole world :">
With a 'Hi' i cant stop smiling for the whole day :">
Just seeing HIM without him doing anything,
I'm the most Happiest girl in the world :">
I just cant stop Smiling every time i see him:""">
I love that guy,
and that is my man :">
My truly only one guy I love the most
My RYKIEL SOON FRANCIA :"><3
I LOVE YOU :">
There may be a million things to smile about, but you’re definitely my favorite one.
 The Most :">

Monday, 25 June 2012

relationships are harder nowadays because conversations became texting, arguments became phonecalls, feelings became just text messages, sex became easy, the word love lost its magic, insecurities became a way of thinking, getting jealous became a habit, trust isn't around, being hurt became natural and leaving is the only option. sad but true, if you have something thats worth it. don't take it for granted, fight for it and never let it go. ♥
</3
:'((( 
I'm afraid...
I’m afraid that you’ll fall for someone else.
I'm afraid some one might take you away, 
I’m afraid you’ll lose feelings for me.
I’m afraid I’m not good enough for you.
I’m afraid that you won’t feel the same way no more.
I’m afraid that you’ll leave me out of no where.
 I'm afraid some one will make you happier and leave
I'm afraid of losing you and not staying beside me, 
I’m afraid to just not have you in my life anymore.


IM SO STUPIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIID:'(((((((((((((((

IM SUCH A HORRIBLE GIRLFRIEND</3
I feel like im not worth for him </3 
yet i dont wanna lose him</3
I wanna scratch that and change it :(
I dont wanna be that girl </3

YIEEE<3 
Its my Baby there whose sleeping :">I love to stare at him sleep<3
This was taken after our long fight.
Lately, we've been having long fights
and iv been really emotional about it.
I think that was monday,
I got jealous again,
and because of that we came into argumentation.
I dont like fighting with him.
it hurts.
why cant i be cool about things?
Im also the one who upset myself and dragging him to it.
why em i so complicated?
It made think that im better off in his life rather im being pain in the butt.
I told myself that i do not want to bring pressure and add to his stress
and here i'am making things worse for him, for us.
I over-reacted and worst i over-think.
neither of us wouldnt want that,
We are miles apart,
its very hard for me not to see the possibilities
of you being drawn or taken by others,
I've been scared of losing you.
Im also scared of you.
After this day, we were ok then here iam again making you mad,
I never actually do anything to make you smile anymore,
nor make you happy
and here i go again,
thinking,
What if you lose it?
what if you got tired and feel lonely with me?
what if you dont want it anymore?
what if you wanna leave?
My mind is effin with me.
I was not being dishonest with him,
i was avoiding him getting mad but it was wrong </3
I didnt even also answer not mind what that guy was asking.
i just erased it and remind him about his gf so wouldnt be doing stuff that his girl wouldnt want too,
and i dont get mad that easily when he ask or say some rude things or word.
why cant i be more rude?
why do i always think about other's feelings first
instead of mine
and neglected him</3
I cant bring myself at ease at all,
He might be thinking im not being honest to him,
I made him think,
I made him curious,
More on top of it,
He lost his trust to me</3
the most im afraid to happen,
it happened
why em i so stupid?
why do i keep hurting him</3
I never intended it that way</3
why em i so disobedient</3
Im just adding up to the pressure</3
'nasa huli daw ang pagsisisi'
and im at that point

</3

all i could say im sorry
</3
It feels like everything is tearing apart,
I Promise that will be the last.
IM SORRY

I LOVE YOU
WILL YOU CHANGE?</3





Sunday, 24 June 2012

After having our dinner,
my bro and i went to the pet shop,
and there were cute rabbits :">
and a Guinea Pig
its my first time to see one in actual~:3
choooooocuteee:">
My bro told me he want any pet as long as he has a pet just to take care of .
Meanwhile, 
My parents were at a computer shop
I dont really know what they were doing there but i saw that there was a sales promoter beside my dad 
and dad sales promoter is one of my friend's friend.
we seen each other yet we didnt really bother to say hi at all neither smile to each other.
The most awkward part was that we both look at each other for like 3 times and nothing.
ugh.
I do not like to encounter this kind of moments.
Just at least say 'Hi'
for heaven sake. 
hahahaha.

Last night after dinner.

We had Japanese food last night :)
it was superb.
BUT.
i didnt plan to eat alot last night,
in my mind, im only going to eat  sushi and unexpectedly there this bento that i want my bro to order it for himself so i could try the ocha noddles.
It happened when my bro was choosing what to order since he was asking me what looks more delicious.
I told him to order the bento with the ocha noddles yet he was buying time to choose wisely for himself.
How greedy of him.
And i guessed while we were in debate of what he would order the waiter thought i wanted to order that dish that i was preferring to my bro and my bro ordered his own,
gosh he looked at me again to help him order for him but i didnt
I was busy looking at the sushi menu like what i said i only planned to eat sushi.
*sigh*
PLUS THE WAITER AINT LISTENING TO OUR ARGUMENTATION
So the bento that i wanted came to my surprised
 
I had no choice but to just eat it if not my parents would damn scold me.pfft.
Any how, I enjoyed eating japanese food:) 
I was so full 
so worth it,haha.
Here are some photos last night :)
This was the bento i wanted him to order 
And this is the one that my brother ordered which he had already eaten before.
I love Sashimi :)
It really taste so good :))






Friday, 22 June 2012

I have been watching this for days now and kept repeating it, 
Actually my brother introduced this anime to me,
at first i didnt like it,
I thought it was all about robots
because i looked at the armor suit beside edward,
i wasnt that interested in robots but i like gundam seed and full metal panic
then he asked me to watch it with him 
so i did,
and surprisingly its really interestingly good,
that i could not help to watch it til the end of the story.
It was really nice that i cant get bored re-watching it :)
But the ending was sad although its satisfying too
damn good.too good.


I love taking photos of me, and i dont know why too:) 
I think its the only past time i could do in my room.
vainess overload,
its like most of my album in my lappy or facebook only contains my face
not much my friends or relatives.
HAHA.
but doesnt matter.
By the way,i like my dress here,its been years that i have not wore it only this day again:)
This was taken after my exam,
i went straight to my room to just vain 
because this dress fit me again 
*yatta*
before it didnt anymore. 
hehe.
im happy to be back in shape again:)



Thursday, 21 June 2012

So i was ' a lil lazy ' to post this.June 3rd 2012

So It was my EXAM WEEK
I have been studying for about 3days from this day ( May 31.2012 )
to prepare for my 1st exam 
and there were so many to read, especially to memorize 
but somehow i managed to memorized them since they gave us 
what we need to review as well as the choices to given on the exam.
  It wasn't that hard, I'd say.
And while studying 
for hours i take a few minutes off and all i do was take picture of me and on what i have been doing when im missing someone, :')
 This is me being a camwhore during the break :9
I was unable to concentrate too, so i need to take ever break~
Then after camwhoring i would be writing some doodles but that just because i was thinking of someone :)
His Always in my mine and everytime his there i cant help but write his name and miss him so much.

Anyway,
We only had 4 subs so we had 4days only.
Kind of relieve but ~
ECONOMICS
was not that good though.
I was studying for it and trying so hard to understand it 
but nothing seems to get into my head , 
Until the daylight breaks i was still up memorizing some of the notes although im not sure of how in going to explain it.
Then the other two subs wasn't a problem at all,
Although I was shocked i couldn't get the provision for depreciation during the exam
I cant believed it that looking at the paper and telling myself this was easy then it turned out 
I couldn't get it , tch.
I feel like cursing that topic.
Even during high school i couldn't get that topic 
i always got it mixed up.
Plus, THE BALANCE SHEET AGAIN!!
It wasn't balanced.
GAAAAAAAAAH!
Oh the heck of it, I dont  feel like im gonna fail though :) OHWEEH xD
BANZAI :)





Friday, 15 June 2012

Unintended emotions!

Can i be suicidal ?
Too frustrated.
Feel like erasing my identity in this world.
they are effecting me,
they are making me someone who im not.
(SIGH)

Saturday, 2 June 2012

5th Months na tayo :')

MAHAL  KONG ASAWA :) :)
Happy 5th months na :)

Im happy to know na kahit we have ups and downs,
we are trying hard pa din for us.
I know nung last month we didnt have much communications,
and i got too worried :(
plus i doubted you which i shoudlnt have,it just happened due to the changes
its's hard to adjust specially when it isnt like that before, but Im staying positive and strong for us.
I was afraid of that night, then the following days that you've lost it which made me feel you didnt want to talk to me because of what happened,repeating same mistakes:( and i hoped you wouldnt.
Right now, i wouldnt be too much on you i know i have hurt your feelings that night and iam really sorry i was just being honest on what i was feeling.next i will be more careful :’(
But baby, im being positive now and staying strong so that we wouldnt be affected on what im feeling as well argue,I dont like us fighting,it hurt badly.Just because on what im feeling things might get worse so im changing that.
I'll just think of you, giving all my trust na,my faith to you.I wouldnt assume anymore.I pray to god when things get rough on us and when i cant get through my emotions:(when i miss you and when i think you dont miss me at all (kasi lang paramdam)TT_TT but i replaced that your just busy.
Im loyal to you and nothing is going to break that, your the only man i want to be with right now and forever.
I never felt so bubbly as much as this with you.
-anu ba meon sayo? hahaa.
And minsan i know na d ka na din kinikilg much, pero diba Im trying hard naman na lambingin ka :33
I know naman na gustong gusto mo yun eh.Pag uwi ko lalambingin kita so much:) at sana di ma magsawa nun:)
I know too that things get so hard na din,but I try to effort on for everything about us:)
- lam mo naman na im so attached to you eh :")hahaha.
Ikaw lang naman talaga lagi kong hinahanap eh :)
Ikaw lang yung lagi nagpapasaya sakin at ng papangiti :)
Ikaw lang yung nagpapakilig ng todo todo sakin kahit minsan meon akong pinagkakakiligin but it wouldnt replace yours:)
Ikaw lang yung lagi ko iniisip,kong anu ginagawa mo,kong natutulog ka o nagpapahinga ka,kong naglalaro ka ba,basta madami yan pero walang assuming about girls,sa daily routines lang.:)))
  • Ikaw lang yung lalaking gusto ko marinig boses<3
  • Ikaw lang yung lalaking gusto ko makita everyday and night at makasama<3
  • Ikaw lang yung lalaki na magiging akin lang at mamahal ko ng buong buo.
  • Ikaw lang yung sumakop sa puso ko at tanging na mamahay dun:)
  • IKAW LANG ANG NAGBIBIGAY BUHAY SAKIN<3
  • IKAW LANG ANG GUSTO KO AT MAKASAMA SA BUHAY KO<3
  • IKAW LANG LALAKI KO<3
  • IKAW LANG ANG MAHAL NA MAHAL NA MAHAL NA MAHAL KO<3 :)

- akin ka lang baby ah?pweeeedi ba yun?pweeeede ba na magdamot?
kasi gusto akin ka lang :'(
BAWAL KA MAKUHA NG IBA AT KUNIN :'((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((
sakin wala makakakuha kasi ikaw lang yung gusto ko kumopkop sakin jan sa puso mo :'))))))
Iyong iyo talaga yun,nakasulat pa talaga -" KAY RYKIEL SOON FRANCIA LANG TONG PUSO NA TOH WALANG PWEDENG SUMINGIT"
  • Miss ko na hug mo mahal,
  • Miss ko na yung kiss mong smack lang,
  • Miss ko na yung kamay mo pag magkaholding hands tayo,
  • Miss ko na yung amoy mo,
  • Miss ko na yung ngiti mo with dimples,
  • Miss ko na gulohin yung buhok mo,
  • Miss ko na yung maliliit na mata mo na kala ko naka contacts ka,HAHA.,parang nangingintab kasi eh :3
  • Miss ko na yung sinusundo mo ko,
  • Miss ko na yung kasama kita sa tabi ko,
  • Miss ko na yung nung lakad tayo nung gabi na yun at bumili ng burger :3 takaw mo:P haha
  • Miss ko na yung natulog ako sa tabi mo,
  • Miss ko na yung luto mo,
  • Miss ko na yung nakikita kita sa kusina pagala gala:3 hahaha.
  • Miss ko na yung txt natin lagi.
  • Miss na kita makitang natutulog:3
  • Miss na kitang kachat lagi,
  • Miss na kitang kaskype,
  • PINAKA MISS KO IKAW<3 TT_TT


kaya lang ako naging sad nung gabi na yun dahil sa sobrang miss na kita.
pero lets be patient ah?malapit na din ako umuwi :))) lapit na din kita makita at makasama :3
but it wont be everyday may pasok ka na nun,d kita istorbohin muchy sa december na yun,study hard baby ko<3
At mag prepare ka na din sa pag pasok mo this june:)ready ready na :)
Balitaan mo ko ah ?:))

Mahal, Your the best that ever came acrossed in my life :)
Im really glad to have met you:)
Im glad to love you :) &
no words can describe of how much I love you so much.
Happy 5th monthsary<3 again:)
MWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA :*:*:*
lets stay strong ,
ah?ah?

You know ung mga downs natin at ito ay trials lang na bigay satin at there will be more.
Binigay satin tong challenge na to kong kakayanin natin at to stay strong for each other too ,kong para sa isat isa tayo J at sana mapagdaanan na natin to, at makasama na kita J
Kakayanin mo naman diba mahal?ako kahit nahihirapan ako minsan , kinakaya ko kasi pinag lalaban ko yung feelings ko, yung pag mamahal ko sayo.
At di rin naman tayo ng lilihim diba?sabi ko nga sayo eh, di na ko mag sisinungaling kasi nga babagohin ok na sarili ko at ayaw ko masira yung tiwala mo sakinL lahat sinasabi ko sayo.At alam ko ganun ka din J
We both have to be honest  naman talaga eh,diba??to make things work out J

I LOVE YOU <3 MORE THAN ANYTHING J AT  DI MAG BABAGO YUN J

MWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA :* :* :*

Can you be my Forever and will not change that ? ;)

ihhhh, :""""">
 muka ka talagang pusa :""""""> 
hahahaha :))))))

I LOVE YOU MATAKAW NA PAYAT :""> :*